Eternity

The idea of eternity scares me and I wonder if it is because I cannot wrap my head around it. Sometimes I wonder if those who are excited about it think of "forever" as the common meaning it has morphed into "a really long time." But it never ends. Even as something good it scares me. I feel guilty that I find it frightening, but I do all the same.

Ear Assault

You know what expression I hate?

"Why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free?"

I am sure it can be applied to many things, but what do you think of when you hear it?

Pretty insulting all around.

I was thinking

Just a ponderance:
Saying something over and over in a fight is like when people try to speak louder in English when someone who speaks a different language doesn't understand them. It is just annoying and they don't understand, but, on the other hand, you just really want them to understand you. You feel like what you are saying is important.

There are so many different smiles. Isn't that weird?

-I'm not sure about you
-I have to
-I've been posing for this picture a long time
-I just want you to see my dimples
-That was funny but I know I am not supposed to be laughing
-We are cohorts, what's next?
-I'm pleased
-I'm embarrassed
-I'm embarrassed and pleased at the same time
-Yes, I just said something funny
-Do you get it?

Just a few. I had written more, but then I cut it to this point because it almost sounded like a poem.

Ponderance of Today; Strong Language

Strong language is like a Hallmark card. It can be cliche and should only be used to convey an intense feeling that you could not otherwise express accurately.

I Like

I like high fives. I want to give and receive some.

I like jumping around like a fool.

I like dancing anywhere...like a fool. I want to go dancing.

I like singing. It calms me when I am scared. It gives me a thrill when I am happy. I want to karaoke.

I like learning new things.

I like smashing things, but there are not many things to smash. At least that will not cost me a bit.

I like acting or performing in general, it gives me a feeling of being somewhere else and I can be anyone and I forget everything. I love it. It has been a long time since I have done it.

Vent

I typed out something that would be of no help to anyone if I posted it. Therefore, it won't be posted and this is the post for today. Maybe it will be turned into a poem or short story and the ambiguity I can hide behind in those forms.

Something I Found

Today while looking at organizing a desk (but not actually doing it) I found a notebook that had only a few pages written in (both in my handwriting and in Bobby's). The one in my handwriting was titled "Snippets on my brain today." There were four "snippets" one on Atheism, one on kids, one on a website, and one on ideals. The one on kids read like this: Kids-are wonderful and free. I wish people would let me dance ballet in the middle of Chik-Fil-A.

Quote

"It is reasonable that everyone who asks justice should do justice." - Thomas Jefferson

Weather

I have sat down. The beginning of my first blog has begun. Words are in my head and are waiting not so patiently to be transferred through my fingers to this page. What do I say?
At this moment everything seems beautiful and saying what I wish to say eloquently seems possible. I suspect it is the weather today. The weather, however, can fool you I suppose. It has been so long since I have written. That phrase is too often uttered in my own voice. I took a creative writing class about a year ago because I had not written in so long. I vowed it would never happen again and then I took an intense science class and here I am again. But I love words and phrases to leave them for too long and they always forgive me after a little prodding. They know I will find my place again and be lost in their beauty and truth and comfort. And the weather is so beautiful I can't help myself. So beautiful.