Tuesday, October 30, 2007


The day before Halloween I am pondering Halloween. More accurately I am thinking about costumes. My family did not celebrate Halloween and our church had no alternative to Halloween. I am not sure why. But I miss that I missed out on the chance to plan out a costume every year and show my creation off to a bunch of people. It sounds fun. I am still uncomfortable with celebrating Halloween, but I would love to go a costume party. I think you are never too grown up for one.
Costumes and grown-ups are funny. When we are children we are so blunt and confident and love dressing in costumes for parties, Halloween, playtime...bedtime. The older we get the more we walk on eggshells and the less confident we become. We think dressing in costumes is for children and silly. But grown-ups change disguises many times every day. It is not just different responsibilities we take on, it is a whole new persona we have created for that "role." We are "Mom," "Socialite," "Wife," "Boss," and "Good Friend." It is tiring.
Another disguise applicable to women only is a disguise called "makeup." They like to wear this disguise everyday and not leave the house without it. I do not mind this disguise if it is because it is a fun disguise, but when it is worn every day it is like the child who never wants to take his Superman PJ's off. Better it is like a pacifier that a child sucks. It is security because the woman believes that there is something in her face that she has to "make up" for. When men wear it every day because they feel they have to I may consider it.

Thursday, October 25, 2007


I have been reading a book that I borrowed from a friend. She enjoyed the book immensely. Right now all I can say is that the author has a writing style I like. I also enjoy the frankness she displays but I was disturbed reading one chapter in the book on the author’s beliefs about abortion.
She is a Christian and her book is her own thoughts on faith. What startled me was not that she had questions about the morality of abortion but that there was no question at all and she was emphatic about that fact. What was most disturbing was that when stating her argument she said that we should not bring into the world children who aren’t wanted. It seems to take away responsibility from a woman. I am a feminist myself but I my beliefs on abortion don’t coincide with many feminist out there. I believe in responsibility. Because a man is allowed to act like a fool a woman should be allowed to act like a fool as well and not be ridiculed. But should the woman act foolishly because she can? Not all cases are foolishness, that is bothersome to me when people tag rape as a woman's fault, but aren't we still taking away responsibility to care for another?
I was not as shocked reading the book as I would have been simply because I have heard this once before. In a creative writing class I took there was a woman in my class that I became close to. We would talk after class, share our ideas. This was because we had the immediate knowledge when we met that the other was a Christian. As we talked and the class progressed I found out that she was not anti-abortion. That was shocking enough. I had met some who were anti-abortion except in the case of rape or believed if a woman is going to die because of the pregnancy she should abort. I had never met one who was a strong Christian and yet believed that abortion merely if it was your decision was okay. Needless to say, I didn't agree. However, it presented me with a lot of cud to chew.
This morning I decided to peruse the internet by typing in Christian Pro-Choice. I did so and there are plenty of websites presenting this case.
What is infiltrating our church? American Christians lack distinguishment from other Americans. We are part of this world and should not distance ourselves from people in it-yet this world is not our home. We cannot bend our philosophy to fit a world that does not love God. I have decided to research Christian Pro-Choice and see what they have to say and I hope to write about it soon.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007


"It is reasonable that everyone who asks justice should do justice." - Thomas Jefferson

Monday, October 22, 2007


I have sat down. The beginning of my first blog has begun. Words are in my head and are waiting not so patiently to be transferred through my fingers to this page. What do I say?
At this moment everything seems beautiful and saying what I wish to say eloquently seems possible. I suspect it is the weather today. The weather, however, can fool you I suppose. It has been so long since I have written. That phrase is too often uttered in my own voice. I took a creative writing class about a year ago because I had not written in so long. I vowed it would never happen again and then I took an intense science class and here I am again. But I love words and phrases to leave them for too long and they always forgive me after a little prodding. They know I will find my place again and be lost in their beauty and truth and comfort. And the weather is so beautiful I can't help myself. So beautiful.

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